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  • DJ Hejtmanek

A Prayer for God’s Holy Light in Our Shadow Lands

Updated: Feb 19, 2021

Sometimes God allows the light of His Presence to dim, shaking us to our core. Don’t be alarmed. He wants to kindle our desire for more of Him. I’ve experienced this firsthand and recognize how it causes me to press into Him with my whole heart. If it feels like God has withdrawn His beautiful light, He hasn’t. Allow this holy dissatisfaction to spark you into the secret place where He will cleanse you and fill you anew with His Holy Spirit, awakening dreams and fueling new purpose.

Dear Father, sometimes I don’t know my own heart. I don’t understand why I feel the way I do and what to do about it. I am often a clueless child wandering about in the dark.

Father, remember that dream I had as a child where I would wake up and turn on the lamp, and the bulb would shatter? That was frightening. That’s how I feel now. Dark seems even darker when the light has flickered and blinked out. Even when I know it’s temporary, like the clouds covering the sun, I can’t bear to be away from your holy light.

You are my sun. Please shine bright again.

I need you. My life is not simply incomplete without you. If it is void of light, it is void of life, goodness, and hope. You aren’t simply part of my life, but the whole. I don’t want a sliver of light, I want a sunny day at noon. I’m asking, begging, for your fullness, Father.

You are my next breath of fresh air.

My heart’s desire is for all of you. Not a hand. Not a word. Not a glimpse.


How was Moses satisfied in the cleft of the rock with a passing glance of your glory? Is that all we can have? It’s not enough, Father.

My trembling heart can’t even conceive of what “all“ means. But I know I’ll never be satisfied with part. Knowing you fully is my aching desire. Second to that is communicating your beauty to anyone who has ears to hear.

Forgive me for small thinking, for small vision, for small words. Let me see and experience the bigness of You. Immense thoughts, dreams, and words for friends.

Your words ignite me.

Filled with your goodness and grace, your words inspire hope, promote peace, and win the war for freedom in my life and others. Take the lackluster, which is my life, and add the light bulb of your presence.

Shine deep and chase away the darkness. Usher full truth into my shadow lands. Fill me with your holy light and cleanse every stinking part.

My heart yearns for more of you, God.


Then the Lord said, “There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.” Exodus 33:21-23 NIV

“You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.” Psalm 63:1-3 NIV

“I long to drink of you, O God, drinking deeply from the streams of pleasure flowing from your presence. My longings overwhelm me for more of you!” Psalm 42:1 TPT


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