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Finding Healing Behind the Veil

Alcohol wounded me and my family, then left us bleeding to die. Wounds were tended, somewhat mended, but left a scar no man could heal.

But One.

I once lashed out and severed a friendship, a good and godly one, over the issue. Old wounds tend to flare. I grieved the loss — of a friend, of a family scarred, of a mother addicted.

Wounded people wound people.

Three days, barely moving from the corner beside my bed, I hid and grieved behind the Ark of the Covenant, sheltered within the veil. Holy moments. Not understanding, simply overwhelmed and undone.


Huddled behind the holy,

Moaning in quiet,


Without a clue


My facade fractured and

My heart bleeding.

Unspoken words.

Unshielded thoughts.

Laid bare in the Presence,

Alone behind the veil,

“Don’t look at me,” I cried,

“But stay. Don’t go.


I stilled in the sacred space


In the Holy of Holies

For my will to move again,

My breath to breathe again,

My heart to beat again

And heal.

The sword of David

Within reach.

Tucked behind the holy,

Like me.

Too heavy, too bloody,

I’m too undone to move.

But One...

— DJ Hejtmanek

Fifteen years ago now, but my emotions remain vivid, and healed. No pain remains - thank God. Alcohol will never be a friend, but God did restore the friendship I severed.

Friend, he shelters and secures us, the anchor for our soul. Spend all the undone time you need in the quiet place behind the veil. He does in us what we could never do for ourselves.

“This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil, where the forerunner has entered for us, even Jesus, having become High Priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek.” Hebrews‬ ‭6:19-20‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


COVER ART “Anchor for the Soul” was painted for my friend, former work colleague and division head Doug Goetzinger and his beautiful wife Stacee (Speak Out Loud). Follow their incredible ministry (and podcast - Speak Out Loud Podcast) for those experiencing mental health issues.


ART PODCAST Many thanks to Jeff Krisman and Living Arts of Tulsa for the podcast interview. I am honored to have two pieces in their “Oh! Tulsa” exhibit this month. CLICK HERE to view all the art in the exhibit. Here’s the PODCAST video link.


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SNEAK PEEK Here's my latest painting, titled "Galloping, Galloping." Acrylic inks on 30 x 30" gallery-wrapped canvas. Yep, painting now in my paint-splashed Dickies. (For full art gallery, check it out here.)

Praying your day is blessed, creative, and filled with the Presence of our loving God.

❤️ DJ


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