
DJ Hejtmanek
Hard and Holy
Updated: Feb 19, 2021

Cocooned or claustrophobic?
I waver, uncertain.
Held or simply restrained
In this velvet vise,
Safe or exposed?
I wonder.
The dichotomy chafes my soul,
Both harsh and tender.
I see the mountain, your glory,
The journey to deeper and higher,
Rocky but right.
A sacred green ascent beckons,
And I quake at the sight.
Why am I afraid?
The One I love calls me up,
The covering One,
The grace-filled One.
My holy quest is to gaze
On His face.
Why do I shake?
The ferocious Lion of Judah
Roars and I cover my ears.
Must I learn your fear?
I long for normal, but I must come.
Somehow I know,
If I remain unscathed,
unchanged,
I lose.
-- DJ Hejtmanek